Where am I Going? and A Website to Share

"Whatever you are by nature, keep it; never desert your line of talent. Be what nature intended you for, and you will succeed."
Sydney Smith, writer and cleric

Creativity seemed to take another vacation yesterday.


I made a feeble attempt last night but was severely distracted. My partner insisted on watching Deuce Bigalow: Male Gigolo which for some strange reason kept bleeding my brain cells dry. It was like passing a really horrific train wreak, you feel bad for the victims but you can not help but watch.

And that was it for the evening. My desire to write only took me as far as opening blogger and staring at the blank "new post" page. Even after a fair nights sleep, getting up and to my office was difficult because I was feeling rather lame and disappointed in myself for not writing something. Several times before arriving at the office I asked myself "Why are you even trying?"

You see, I am one of the lucky ones. I have a job that I enjoy, and work in a comfortable environment with good people that all get along.  I know that I could be doing more, but with the current economy I don't dare make changes. Given my current creative block, it would be foolish to give it up to make more time for writing , especially since I am not very good at it anyway.  Doubt begins to creep in, along with regret, which leads to resentment.  By the time I arrived at work the DRR was at full throttle!

This morning the light in my foggy, lesion filled brain was switched on by a very dear Internet friend named Mastin Kipp. He is not aware that I consider him a friend or that I quite often find inspiration from his work but each morning I can count on an email from Mastin's beautiful website The Daily Love  The email is filled with inspirational quotes, links to great authors and Mastin's own "Affirmations" for the day. 

Today's Affirmations from Mastin really filled me with such hope and I would like to share it with you here;
" I see life through the lens of abundance!"

"What I see in other's is a reflection of the same in me!"

"I trust my talents and express them fearlessly!"

"I am grateful for change because I know it always brings new energy into my life!"

I plan on saying this to myself everyday, or at least try to.  For some reason, Mastin's e-mail was sent to me at just the right time and I am grateful.   Please visit his page and sign up for this e-mail gem soon!!!

 

It's Tuesday and I have nothing more to say...

Dear Sleep....please visit me tonight. I know you have been here several nights before but I need you to stay this time more than 4 hours.  Thanks to an occasional dirty martini, or a full 24 hours without sleep, you allow me 8 hours of bliss.  Lately you have been AWOL!

The sounds I hear at night during these sleepless hours are ear-piercing.  My body jolts upward at the sounds of Pasha's small paws scratching to open a drawer located 100's of square feet away.  "GO TO SLEEP CAT!!!"

Does anyone have an atlas road map that will direct me to the dreams of the gods?   Perhaps my writing would be oh so much better if  the dreams would return.   HELP!

Another Manic Monday...

Mr. J.C. Penny tells us..."I am grateful for all my problems. After each one was overcome, I became stronger and more able to meet those that were still to come. I grew in my difficulties."

Thank you Mr. Penny for that little bit of wisdom. I agree with you wholeheartedly and embrace this wisdom as my own but I wish to add the following:

(1) Nothing in this statement allows for my right to kick, scream, cuss or whine a problem through to its end.  I exert this right with every problematic situation I find myself in. Personally, I find great strength with every dammit, every tear I shed, and every physical punishment I apply to my person. Even though it might make everyone around me feel uncomfortable, these things pump me up for whatever the battle might bring to me. Therefore, I would end this quote with the following caveat, "I fight and I fight hard - please take cover and take nothing I say or do personally."

(2) Sometimes I make a mountain out of an opened box belonging to Pandora. In other words, I create my own catastrophes most of the time. For these self-created challenges I am not so grateful like Mr. Penny. Although, I do learn from the problems and life-challenges created by moi better than those fate hands me.  After all, when you find out that you are the cause of a personal set-back and there is no one left to blame, what possible solution is left?  Only this, Learn, Change, Take Control!

 I do love this quote from Mr. Penny and I try my best. But since I make so many problems and challenges for myself, I sure wish life and fate would stop handing me new ones!

A Long Weekend and A New Journal

What a Waste!  I got nothing accomplished this weekend -ZERO! I could not manage a creative thought and my camera still sits collecting dust.  What is wrong with me?

Since I was at home today nursing my sore foot, which has become quite colorful in the past 24 hours , my brain worked overtime to come up with ideas for this blog. "Maybe you should just start placing your daily journal here for everyone to see," my foggy brain told me.  Hmmm...ok, that is a start.

"Don't worry, I will come up with something entertaining," I informed my foggy brain.  "Anyway...you have too many white spots and we don't want those lesions to get the idea that they have any type of control."

For now, I will put this to rest and dream on it.  Maybe the journal thing is a good idea but I think it might take a good nights sleep to get it going.  Maybe some of my friends out there could offer an idea up.

Goodnight my friends!

HOLD ON! Addendum to Big Ass Birthday Party

Stop the Presses..stop making all those 50th birthday party plans for moi.  At least if you insist on helping me celebrate my golden years...don't invite these kids!

Mindset of The Class of 2014